Departure

Well, the departure date is known, the weight limit is known, the things to be settle have been listed as well. It seems like everything is coming to an end, especially the "waiting" period.

I was so eager to know the departure date, but now; I wish I would never know it.
I wished I could count down the days left in M'sia, but now; I wish I don't know the time is moving too fast.
I hoped I can celebrate one more CNY here, but now; I wish I can have more CNYs.
I always know that I don’t wanna leave here, but I couldn’t find the reason. When the months become weeks, I start to understand the reasons for the reluctant feeling. The feeling is complicated and indescribable.

Now, I can only announce that I’ve to leave on 20th. There are 20 more days left. And I consider myself as the lucky one, since there are more friends who leave earlier than me. Some of them don’t even have the chance for the CNY eve.

开心就好吗？？

为何他会告诉我，做人，开心就好？
为何他劝我，不要被太多的 “责任” 绑着？
为何他说，做事情，不是做给别人看，而是为自己？
为何他说，我不知道你要问什么，但我知道你现在的脑袋是 “空” 的？
为何他不停的重复那句，“开心就好”， “尽力而为”？
为何他不停的强调，你要过得开心些？

他告诉妈，我很静，不爱说话；
妈连连点头，说我从不诉说心事，很喜欢 “收”，
现在想起，我觉得也许我心里有太多的空位吧....
他又看了我一眼，缓缓地告诉妈，她向来都是 “这个样” 的。

他说了整十分钟吧，我却只记得这些....

他问我，听懂了吗？
隐隐约约的，我一直点头，
不懂自己是否完全听懂，
不懂自己是否都把他的劝告牢牢记住了，

最后，他叫我 “笑一个吧”....

New header's picture

I like it, love it, cherish it. It's a nice concept. Thanks Javin, for the gift and superb concept.

Here are some parts of the message that I received. I'm pasting it here to share the great rejoicing.

#Well, I done this design quickly cause I afraid there's not enough time for me to do it if I procrastinate.So, the design is pretty simple. Sorry for the rush. I used Sony PSP as my concept, cause it is portable. It symbolises human being. We can go anywhere we want, do whatever we want.......#

#.......I like to play game and Sony Play Station is my favourite. I picked PSP then........#

#.......In the world of game, we have to think carefully before we move the next step, attack, guard, escape and rest to gain health. In the world of study, we have to think twice, thrice,etc. before we start to plan, take notes, highlight the important parts and manage our time for entertainment,study or rest........#


*p.s.:it's a good design. You'll gain your success in the field of anim in the future. All the best for your final sem...=)

Dear scholars / JPA scholars--Part 2( a long quote from X's blog)

*The second part is here..Enjoy your reading.

Dear arrogant scholars, let me tell you this:
People who do not get straight A's in SPM are not stupid.
A friend of mine scored D's for Sejarah and Pendidikan Moral because they were utterly useless subjects and yet he performed brilliantly in his Pre-University examinations. He is currently reading Medicine in Monash University, no thanks to JPA.

People who do not take extra subjects at SPM level are not cowards or idiots.
This is EXACTLY the problem with Malaysia's education system. We are studying for the sake of getting A's, not for the sake of learning.

Intelligence is not measured by the quantity of A's but by the quality of A's.
The threshold mark for an A1 at SPM level is approximately 75 (possibly lower). Tell me, is getting 10A1 with an average of 95 marks better than 12A1 with an average of 75 marks? Why is it that the latter is likelier to obtain a JPA scholarship than the former?

SPM is a fucked-up gauge of intelligence.
Grade inflation, rote learning, flawed marking techniques, lack of emphasis on critical thinking, rigid syllabus; all these factors contribute to the impending demise of SPM as a measure of cognitive ability.

A scholar should display not just intellectual qualities but also a mentality Malaysia can be proud of.

You cannot imagine how sick I am of reading "Omg, JPA punya cutoff tinggi le.. tak tau boleh fly tak.." [translated: Omg, JPA's cutoff score is so high.. I'm not sure if I can make it].

You know what? Quit whining. JPA's cutoff is LOW. If you cannot achieve a TER of 85 (for AusMat, SAM) then you don't deserve to be a scholar in the first place. I assure you, there are countless others out there who are more befitting to be scholars. Don't for one moment think that you are irreplacable.

A scholar has no right to complain about his/her scholarship.

"JPA's monthly allowance is too meagre!"

"I wanted to go to Australia but they gave me UK! Bodoh!"

"I wanted to do course A instead of course B! Stupid JPA!"

"The bond is too long! I demand it to be shortened!"

Talk about being unappreciative. You have been given the chance of a lifetime; an all-expenses paid window to knowledge and learning; and yet you bemoan your apparent 'misfortune'. Pathetic.

*Scholars should strive for perfection and not just be content with mediocrity.*

I cannot stress this point enough... Yes, I know the cutoff is TER85 or BBB, but can you please please please please pleaseeee aim higher??

How can you even be happy? I personally would be ashamed to call myself a scholar.. Imagine heading overseas as a proud recipient of a Malaysian government scholarship only to be mocked by the locals: "You're among the best of Malaysian students? I expected better.."

Humiliating..

Know your standing!
Yes, you are a scholar. Yes, you are good, no questions about that. However, you are definitely NOT the best. The smartest, nicest and most deserving of my friends out there are not scholars.

Sad though, they could've made Malaysia proud.. And kick all of your asses along the way.

I reiterate: Do not for one moment think that the country needs you. Quite the contrary, YOU need the country; for the RM 1 million or so required to fund your studies came from the pockets of all 27 million citizens. Your scholarship is a privilege, a commitment; not a right.

You are Malaysia's junior ambassadors.
That means....

No typing like this: "Ko nak pgi fly bsok tpi ko x tau cme mne nk cari kapai tbang."

or this: "Aiyo sei lo.. How lehh, ta lecturer veli st0pid la.. Duno hw to teach wan.. If kenot fly then her fault oni la! Tiu.."

It also means not acting like complete morons when you are overseas, which includes;
~No gawking at the breasts of Caucasian girls.
~No excessive slouching to the extent where you look like an invertebrate. Slouching= Not cool.
~No FAILING in university.
~And certainly NO starting of Facebook threads entitled "Why Do You Think We Are Deserved JPA Scholar."

The self-righteousness... It burns!
The English... It burns even more!

I repeat, the insinuating comments above were meant ONLY and ONLY for the fucktards of scholars.

And yet yet again, I repeat.... I acknowledge that fucktard scholars constitute merely a small portion of the entire scholar community and that the overwhelming majority of you guys are full of awesomeness.

As a closing sentiment, I shall bring this to the top:

You are a part of an elite group of budding academicians, a circle of high achievers whom, with the proper motivation and hardwork, will go on to do great things. You have been rigorously selected and given a priceless opportunity by the government, under the impression that you are the creme' de la creme' of students, to live your dreams and to walk the corridors of excellence. You are, in the eyes of the society, government and fellow students, the emancipation of academic brilliance. You are superior. You are a JPA scholar.

Hence, don't screw up.


*What is in your mind after the reading??Well,you yourself know it!!

p.s.:
After the reading, I have the feeling that I really don't deserve the scholarship, but I've to strive harder to fully 'utilise' this golden chance as well as not to waste the limited opportunity..Cos I'm REPLACEABLE....haha

p.s.p.s.: I apologise for pasting the indecent words, as the entry won't be able to express the true feeling of the author if I delete them.