It sounds like me, it looks like me, but it is not me

It sounds like me, it looks like me, but it is not me......Yeaaa, it's not me. Sometimes, I know I have lots of weird thinkings in my head, but, I'm not a weirdo, I guess.

I'm not me??Yea, I don't sound like me recently. Real self versus ideal self.....fight, fight, fight, and I'll choose the loser. I see the two selfs fighting....and in the end, K.O.

Recently, I can barely feel myself except in the dreams (so, I love to sleep). Ya, FEEL. I can't feel myself. I wanna shout out loud: "It's so not ME!!!!".

Perhaps, it's the tiredness and stressing stuffs that shaped this ME.

I think I need a big warm hug from someone who is willing to pull me out from the drowsiness.

p.s. Oh yea, I have one big discovery, I found that a warm hug does feel good. Thanks to those who always give friendly HELLO & GOODBYE hugs. Mom, dad, I realised that I never hug you guys after my childhood. I want, and I insist to give you guys a warm hug when I go back [I know you guys might think that your daughter is acting weird, but I insist so that I won't regret for the rest of my life].