上了大学才知道....

上了大学才知道，
不要心情不好时就对周围的人发脾气，渴望他们谅解你，人家不是你的父母，现在你可以明白父母对自己多重要。

上了大学才知道，
会遇到许多自己看不惯的人或事，但那与你无关，别人爱怎样随他便，别生不该生的气，不值。

上了大学才知道，
许多曾经的人会变得让你认不出，但请留住回忆。

上了大学才知道，
会有人很讨厌你或者和你过不去，但他爱怎样就怎样，我们要大度，不和小人计较，但前提是你正确。

上了大学才知道，
学习要刻苦，因为凭聪明就能应付大学科目的人是凤毛麟角。

上了大学才知道，
原来时间一空闲下来是那么的无聊，丝毫没有中学的充实感觉。

上了大学才知道，
太在乎别人往往会伤害自己。

上了大学才知道，
对自己好的人会随着时间的流逝越来越少。

上了大学才知道，
可以不把所有人当朋友，但千万不要把一个人当敌人，至少可以当同学。

上了大学才知道，
原来上课，吃饭，自修常常都得自己一个人。

上了大学才知道，
手机是有事时才用，并不是为了交流感情。

上了大学才知道，
真心对一个人好不一定有回报，而你忽略的人往往有可能是最重视你的人。

上了大学才知道，
生活是有很多不公平的，你一定要正视，相信实力和群众的眼睛。

上了大学才知道，
人的性格可以差异到如此之大。

上了大学才知道，
课程会在你不经意间，拉下很多，期末考试亲不一定能补回来。

How can I bring the pieces of my life together again?

Lotsa things had happened within few weeks or perhaps few months.Mid sem exam,lost phone,b'day,holiday,worms.....etc.Dont know where to start and dont know which shall not express.Anyway,I'm glad they're gone.I'm now at my home,a real home.I have gone away from the place that I never consider as home....Yet,i know i'll need to go back soon.

Here,at my sweet home,everything seems occurring fast and disappearing fast.The time flies.Still,i need to back to the reality in few days,or less than 2weeks.Anyway,this holiday is a good period for recharging.The battery was in deficit for a long period already.

Recollecting all the memories,i find it difficult to bring the pieces of my life together.Everything seems so strange and....Let's talk about the exam week 1st,that week indeed was a hell like week.I realised we shall not do the last minute work,and i knew i did badly for the mid sem papers.It's all my own fault,I couldnt change my homesick mood to exam mood.I attempted,but failed.Actually it could not considered as a total failure.I did manage to concentrate on revision for some moments....The worst of that week was my 19th b'day fell on exam day.I didnt manage to concentrate on the paper that I was sitting for.It even worst after receiving my parents b'day messages.Early in the morning,at 5something,i got a msg from mom.The content has indeed forced out my tears,but i withheld them.Then,I received another msg from dad at 7something,it's just 20minute before entering the exam hall;"To my beloved daughter,happy b'day".This msg has forced out my tears again.Yet,this time,I couldnt control myself.The tears dropped in the library.I immediately wiped the tears and continued my last minute revision.That few moments,I wished to be at home a.s.a.p..I didnt have mood for the paper that I was going to sit.I knew these two msgs werent mean anything,but they have evoked some feelings that I have suppressed for so long.Anyway,I shall not talk about these now,they have passed.

About the losing phone thingy,this wasnt the 1st time.I had lost once last year.This time,I could consider myself as lucky because i still managed to get it back.The person who got it is honest enough to answer my call.I got it back the next day.Nevertheless,i found something wrong with my phone.The person has sent something from my phone using bluetooth,but i dont know what have been sent.Ok,I dont wanna think about it already,at least I've got back my phone.

Then,the worms thingy.I found worms around the dustbin in my unit.They crawled on the surface of the dustbin,on the garbage bag....yucksss...so disgusting.I dont know who was/were the cause of them.I just knew i was the one who cleaned it.Now,I've stronger phobia towards worms,especially white worms.They crawled on my hand!!!I felt helpless the moment i saw them all over the dustbin.I've phobia towards worms since young,and now,i need to confront them.Yet,i knew nobody will handle it if i dont do so.At last,I still managed to handle it.About the process,I dont wanna recall,it's fulled of anger,frustrate,disgust.......(I cant continue).

Ok,now let's talk about the surrounding.There're some changes.I could feel them.Anyway,dont feel like talking about them..(a sudden end of story)

Now,I still find it's difficult to bring the piece of my life together.The task is somehow challenging and tough.Perhaps,I'll find the way one day in the future.

Holiday Mood --> Exam Mood

Few more days to the mid-sem exam,
at the same time,it's also few more days to the 2weeks long mid-sem break.
No mood to do revision.
no mood for exam preparation,
no mood to sit for exam.
Everyday,the only thing that haunts my mind is--I'll be going home soon!!
Months,weeks,days,hours,minutes,seconds....I haven't gone back.
Suffering from severe homesick now.
Hope to be home as soon as possible,days and nights.
I can't stand for any longer,
wanna flee from the hell like place,now,and perhaps forever.

Nope--SWITCH,SWITCH!!
Switch your mood now,concentrate on the revision,
you should know how important it is.
Start working hard now,
try to improve yourself,
you're here to study,
NOT to enjoy!!

How old am I?--in years,months,weeks,hours,mins &secs??

I found out something that are quite interesting.
At this particular moment,.....

As of 5/6/2009 at 10:16:53 PM
I'm 18 years old.
I'm 228 months old.
I'm 989 weeks old.
I'm 6,925 days old.
I'm 166,210 hours old.
I'm 9,972,616 minutes old.
I'm 598,357,013 seconds old.

An interesting oldies' movie review - One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest(1975)

This movie provides depictions of people being diagnosed for their illnesses associated with abnormal psychology. These people are diagnosed in a mental institution. The main character of this movie, Randle Patrick McMurphy is one of the people that are being diagnosed in the movie. He is a frequent visitor of jail and is sentenced to jail for his latest conviction, statutory rape. Rather than spending time in the jail, he succeeded to convince the guard that he is crazy enough to be sent for psychiatric care and being admitted to the mental institution. In the movie, he has brought out some psychology issues throughout his short stay in the mental ward. Besides Murphy, the actions and individual stories of other characters in this movie, Chief Bromden, Billy Bibbit, Nurse Ratched, Dale Harding, Charlie Cheswick and so on have portrayed some controversial psychology issues as well. The total control of Nurse Ratched over the patients and even the staffs in the institution has been highlighted as the main theme of this movie. Another theme is the fight against oppression that is pointed out through the story of Murphy’s arrival at the institution which has challenged the rules set by Nurse Ratched for everyone in the ward to follow. Generally, the whole movie is about insanity and how people on “the other side” of the wall view the word “insanity”.

Murphy has been vigorously opposed the rules set by Nurse Ratched by carrying out some actions to show his dissatisfaction towards her. Some examples of those actions are demanding to watch baseball match on television, bringing the patients out of the ward for a fishing trip, bringing his girlfriend, Candy to the ward at night and so on. According to Freud Personality Development Theory, the doctor in the mental institution perceives that Murphy is having negative Oedipal Impulse for Nurse Ratched, who might symbolize his mother. This impulse could have been raised during Murphy’s childhood or adolescence, which his mother might have sexually rejected him. This condition is considered as normal for the theory of Oedipus Complex. Freud asserted that this would motivate the male child to then identify with the same sex parent and pursue normal sexual relations with females of his own age. Perhaps Murphy would have reacted extremely bad to his mother’s rejection, and as a result of his refused Oedipal Impulses, he developed jealous loathing for his mother. According to the doctor’s theory, this loathing or his mother must have been transferred to Nurse Ratched, who holds a mother-like position as the head of the nurse in the ward.

Besides that, stereotyping concept has also been depicted in this movie. Stereotype is a generalization of a person or group based on a few representative characteristics that we closely associate them with. The main theme, insanity is a well illustration of stereotyping behavior in the society in this movie. Some people argue that insanity is a psychological disease while others claim that being insane is just the possession of another perspective towards the world that is not accepted by the majority of the society. For instance, Murphy is considered to be crazy because of his aggressive conduct and personality; however he is the one that chooses to go to the asylum rather than staying in jail. In the movie, Chief lives in his own world, apart from society in order to flee and hide from reality. Nevertheless, he is also considered as an insane person by the society as his actions are considered as abnormal from the majority. Beside these two characters, other patients in the ward are considered as insane as well. For example, Harding voluntarily chooses to be in the ward in order to escape from his “shameful” sexuality because he is a homosexual whereby homosexuality is considered as abnormal for the society. Just like Billy, who also chooses to be manipulated and controlled by the staff so he doesn’t have to face the judgment and cruelty of society. The aforementioned characters are being stereotyped by the society as insane people just because of their characteristics that are slightly different from the majority. So, we can see that the majorities in the society tend to stereotype those minorities that have different characteristics with them.

Furthermore, there is an ethical issues being raised for the medication given to the patients. In fact, there is one scene that emphasizes "medication time", and each of the patients must take their prescribed medication in view of the Nurse Ratched. Murphy questions the contents of his medicine, but is refused for any information, even though the one who will consume the medicine is him. This is a perfect example of medicalization, these patients do not have a choice of whether they feel medicine is necessary for their treatments.

p/s:lotsa things to be discussed on,but this will make the movie becomes uninteresting if i reveal all the plots.So,i recommend you guys to watch this movie by either downloading it illegally or buying the licensed DVD.=D

1st May

1st of May,the labour day should be a delighted day for many people especially for the workers.This is the day for them to get good rests.Me,should be happy for getting this holiday as well,but...deep in my heart,there is no delight feeling at all.

Most of my friends have gone back to their hometown but I'm still staying at the hostel. This is all because of tiring and time consuming journey back to my hometown.So, i have decided to stay here.Tomorrow is even worst,i'll be staying alone in my unit as zayana will go back to her hometown,shah alam too,since it is so near from subang.

Watching people leaving one by one,the homesick feeling worsens. It has been a period i didnt see my home,my family,my room,my bed.....so,I wanna go home!!But,the long and tiring journey has stopped me from doing so.Moreover,i know i won't do my work if i go home and I will end up coming back with all the unfinished work.Hence,i decided to stay at the hostel during this long weekend.However,i ended up my Friday doing nothing but slept for the whole day since yesterday after coming back from college.Oh ya,and facebooking for the whole day,since the moment i got up.

Lotsa things to be said..........but,i'm both mentally and physically tired,don't feel like writing. When can i end the regimentation of all these frustrating thingy??I wanna end them as soon as now, and go home,sleeping on the familiar bed in my room,looking at the familiar and warming faces,eating my favourite home cooked food.

p/s:I forgot to mention that i have done a productive thing for today.I have tidied up all my notes.They are more organized now,and I'm sure this will help much during my revision for the coming mid-sem exam.So,this is the only thing that i can be proud of for staying at the hostel to support my decision of not going back to hometown.