還我

听着听着，突然觉得歌词很写实，特别喜欢这四句：
"還你 相信過的承諾 美麗過的美夢
我都不要了 請把快樂還我

還原每個從前 清掉你的細節
還給自己沒愛過的昨天"。

也许是最近的经历吧；
也许是自己累了；
也许是环境太复杂了；
也许是周围的人变了；
也许是自己再也找不到从前那简单的快乐；
也许是周遭的关心已经消失了；
也许每个人在不同的阶段有不同的心态，而当自己是唯一一个傻傻的保持原本的热情时，就受伤了；
也许我该沉默，让自己改变，回去小时候那默默无语的自己，没收热情，没收义气，没收关心，没收真心；
也许这想法很自私，但其他抉择已不在了；
也许自私是为了保护自己，不在受伤，因为小说电影戏剧里形容的心痛真的存在，那心痛的感觉会让自己窒息，让自己以为被刺杀了。

我只想要简单的生活，简单的幸福。付出的真心只希望得到一丁点的真心回报，付出的关心只希望得到一丁点的回应。但，这些都不能在现实生活中找到。告诉自己，你长大了，面对现实吧，人心会变，环境会变，所有的一切一切都会变。

到最后，我什么都不想要了，把我所相信过的承诺和美梦都还你，请把快乐还我，我想还给自己一个从没付出过任何一点也可以简单快乐的昨天。

笔，

雯

Say Goodbye

The "say goodbye" sings into my heart, and indeed into the hearts of many people. Finally, a three-year degree in Australia is coming to an end. The first two years at this foreign land, many of us couldn't wait to go home once we have break, including me. But, it's really in a blink of eyes, three years have passed really quick, I haven't had enough of joy on this land, haven't had enough experience of the four seasons, haven't visited many places, haven't tried many scrumptious food, haven't met all the people I wanna meet, haven't spent enough time with the people I love, etc etc. There are too many "I haven't...", and it's always the case that people don't cherish when they have it, and get regret when losing it. When we first came here, we really wished the time to go faster so that we can graduate ASAP and go home. Yet, now, many of us wish to freeze the time.

Friends that I know in these three years, thanks for giving me the memories, be it happy or sad, angry or laughter, all are memories that I will smile at in the future when I turn back and look at them. Thanks for the companion, thanks for the cares, thanks for helping me to grow, thanks for making me frustrated over somethings cause I really learnt lessons from those frustrations, etc etc. I hope we will keep in touch in the future, and for as long as I still live on this earth. I'm really really unwilling to leave all of you, and the memories here.

Now is only the initial stage of the parting, some people left to their countries for good, and me haven't made my steps yet, I'll cherish the moments left and two months later, the heart will be even heavier.





我期待 ~ 张雨生 陶晶莹

我期待 有一天我会回来
回到我最初的爱 回到童贞的神采
我期待有一天我会明白
明白人世的至爱 明白原始的情怀
我情愿 分合的无奈 能换来春夜的天籁
我情愿 现在与未来 能充满求量的爽快
Say Goodbye Say Goodbye
前前后后 迂迂回回的试探
Say Goodbye Say Goodbye
昂首阔步 不留一丝遗憾

我情愿 分合的无奈 能换来春夜的天籁
我情愿 现在与未来 能充满求量的爽快



Say Goodbye Say Goodbye
前前后后 迂迂回回的试探
Say Goodbye Say Goodbye
昂首阔步 不留一丝遗憾

At this moment, a warm tight hug is sufficient. Arghhhh....

The mind vs the body. Who win?

Sick is really a suffering of life. When you don't fall sick, you'll never realise that health is the most important of all.

These days, have been laying of beds doing nothing. Feeling breathless, restless, fever, flu, cough, etc etc..Every breathe of oxygen is so precious that as if I've never come into contact with oxygen. Feel as if the lungs never have sufficient oxygen.

Days and nights are already indistinguishable. I could stay up the whole night, regardless how u force myself to stick to the bed, the body never response well to the brain's instruction, and the breathless nights enhance the sleepless nights. Day time, the extremely tired body couldn't stand the tiredness, it stuck to the bed like there's no tomorrow. Thus, my friends always tease me that we live at the same region but different time zone!!

When I saw a doctor posted something about respiratory tract infection, I did some research and found myself match a lots of the lower RTI symptoms!! Phewww..hopefully it's not something that I don't wish to happen..:(

Last night, again the body and mind fought the whole night until the body finally surrendered this morning around 7something. Then, 10.50am, the first alarm, the mind dragged the body out of the bed, and pushed it to go to library, to get the super string heater in the library, and hence the mind can at least concentrate a lil in revising for the first paper in a few days time. The body felt like going against the brain, but still due to the consideration of the possible effect that both body and mind will die in the exam hall few days later, the body raised a white flag.

In the library, there's external factor who came to haunt the might and trying to lure the body to sleep as 3 hours of sleep per day is definitely a deep deficit of the body. The sleeping monster (Mara of the mind) trying its best to lure the body, and the mind tried all sort of possible ways to win the war. The mind tried to ask gor help from her best friend (the iPhone),, her good friend (the food), and she even tried to use sneezing as one of the methods to stay awake. Sneezing is a method, funny huh? Yea, sneezing indeed is a good method, as the mode wanted to sneeze, it had to pay extra attention to control the noise made by the sneeze so that the people around wouldnt be affected by the noise, the cautious moments made the mind as well as the body more alert so that it could win against the sleeping monster.

Finally, mind won the war with the help of her buddies. She even realized and learnt a new philosophy of the day, "a ship in a harbour is safe -- but that is not what ships are for", thus the mind continue fighting and hopes that the sleeping monster won't come to haunt again, so that the tired body can stay awake and has a good rest when it reaches home.

不错的一首歌

最親愛的你

谢谢你送我这首歌。

Darl，谢谢你对我的心疼，我很感激，很心甜。

很很很珍惜我们的友谊， 但愿我两的人生都一路好走。
你要加油，你并不孤单，也不是孤战，我随时都会stanby在你需要我的每一刻。

加油，你行的！

我。不是完美小孩

最害怕的，

不是所有人都反对自己，

而是，

到最后才发现，

自己所坚持的，

其实是错的。

真正坚强的，

不是该哭时不哭，

而是哭完后，

还要记得如何去微笑。

Sometimes, those who look like the toughest,

are always the ones who fall asleep with tears at night.

我，不是完美的小孩，

再烦，也提醒自己别忘了微笑；

再急，也提醒自己要注意语气；

在苦，也提醒自己别忘记坚持；

再累，也提醒自己别忘了爱自己。

Flashes of.....

When waiting for the bus; the cold weather, the location, the same bus....etc. The flashes kept flooding my mind..

When I walked home through the same path, the flashes appeared again..

When I walked up the stairs; looked at the dark corner of the staircases, looked at the 3rd floor, flashes came to haunt me again..

When I walked to the balcony, looked at the dark end of the road, I could see the shadow walking there and waving bye at me..

When I felt cold; the pictures of the sweater, the warmth, the train station, etc etc... kept me drowning in the sea of flashes..

When I slept late and woke up late again, the flashes of nagging played around my ears..

When I cooked, the flashes of me preparing the food flashed in front of me..

Lots and lots of places I go, lots and lots of things I do; the flashes will keep appearing. The only thing I could do is to distract myself and put on the iron mask from now on until 1 year later, or maybe shorter period / longer period. I'll see what the fate wants me to go through in my life, and I'll see what the future wants me to do.

I've never promised on things that I couldn't 100% sure that I could make it, but that moment, I had no idea what my mind was thinking, I promised I won't give up within this 1 year, and I think I will try my best to keep my promise. Hope,wish....the tiredness won't stop me from realising my promise.

Stay strong as always, pls.

有些痛，

说不出来，

只能忍着，

知道能够慢慢淡忘，

学会承受痛。

有些话，

适合烂在心里。

有些痛，

适合无声无息的忘记。

当经历过，

你成长了，

自己知道就好。

很多改变，

不需要自己说，

不想知道的人会觉得刺耳，

想知道的人，

不需要说也会看得到。

最近，每件事情都很不顺利。挫折、障碍...

健康、学业、生活，样样不行。

检讨检讨，再检讨。还是不行。

赶快爬起来吧，追上去！！=( =( =(

Happiness

Happiness seems to be something common in our daily lives, and it sounds so close to us, yet it isn't really surrounds us.

Psychologists recommended the to-do-list for happiness:

• Take a few photos every day
• Watch comedy / movies (with happiness as the theme)
• Send greeting cards to friends
• Sometimes, get yourself a big meal
• Have a walk along the beach
• Work out once per week
• Sing loudly while driving
• Find a peaceful place, grab a seat with a cup of hot coffee, and read a book
• Sing while bathing

These methods do bring some or lil happiness to our daily lives!!!

最近

最近，泪泉好像发达了。还是，我患上了mood swing？

夜晚，好像成了头脑发达，泪泉发达的时间。以往，当听到一些人说心痛的感觉时，我不以为意，只认为这是夸张的形容词。其实，心好像真的会痛。心痛的感觉很不好过。而心痛的原因，我没有个确定的答案。

想家。很想很想家。想看看爸，妈。还有弟，最近好像遇到问题了。我的能力真的很有限，很多事情都有心无力。人生真的很多挫折，障碍。

想。对，就是想，想念一个人。别人眼中强大的我，好像已经退步了。因为习惯了依赖，当依赖不在时，有些难习惯回到强大独立的我。有时想了想，如果依赖从来没出现，就不会造成习惯依赖的我。就算短暂的出现，也会让人上瘾。

最近，事情特别多。真的有些累了。祈求事情不要再接二连三的发生了。想有个喘口气的时间。