Slip Away

Everytime I look into the mirror of my mind
I barely recognise the man I see
I feel the tide is turning and I’m stranded out at sea
I thought I could survive but reality has got a better part of me
If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I’d see what true love could be
And I won’t let tomorrow
I won’t let tomorrow slip away

If I could I would change my yesterday
I would listen to my heart
And then today I’d see what true love could be
And I won’t let tomorrow
I won’t let tomorrow slip away

Bitterness and Sweetness

Life has been too much bitterness, in which you cant choose to avoid. And sometimes, the spiciness makes us suffocate. Days as vacation trainee are pretty tiring and I never expect that this perceived "easy job" would be so much difficult.

As a VT, I got my first ever traffic fine because of work, and it costs me a few hundred!!! All the petrol and parking incurred during operation, no claim. Got scolded by the client's company manager on behalf of my company. Phewwww, the manager should have expected that a VT doesnt know much. Moreover, overtime is unpaid. The stress of couldnt submit work in time, made me working OT from home.

Okay, all I would say life is more meaningful if you taste the bitter with the sweet, and the sadness with the joy.

谢谢你，姐妹。

你的每一句， 我收好了。

“能被人照顾，是一件很幸福的事，加油，你一定要幸福，不需要那么坚强，当然，我的肩膀还是随时让你依靠。把握当下才是最重要的，以后的事，以后再想，知道吗？^^看着你幸福，我也很开心=）”

Someone

Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realise why it never worked out with anyone else.

And I know that everything happens for a reason, so I can only hope that this happening will be a good one.

But, sometimes, this happening made me feel bad in some ways. When that person can't act normal in front of people, I feel that it's my fault. And when people knew about it from the third party, I dont know how will they feel about me, a selfish one perhaps. But I can only say it's not that I want to hide anything, it's just that announcing is not a good choice. Yet, I still dont know how to face everyone when questions overwhelming and I think I'm just afraid that my life will change and ppl will treat me differently. I'm too selfish and greedy, perhaps.

If one day, someone leaves a note for you stating that he/she left already, what will be your response?

Sometimes, I really need to think of what I want, and not doing blindly.

These days, there's only one word in my life --- BUSY!!

我是一位自私的人

到了关键时刻，突然发现，自己，是一位自私的人。我一直在努力的寻找着解救方法，但，到这一刻，一位朋友所提供的方法，唯一的方法--人们所谓的last resort，我却害怕接受。原因只有一个，就是--我被自私蒙蔽了。我害怕面对群众的质问，群众异样或者可怜的眼光，害怕每当我遇到大家，见面时，每个人心里都有着一样的问题。害怕自己，一旦做了决定，生活就会改变，也许不再平淡，也许每天会接到无数的电话，嘘寒问暖，或者问近况。担心大家会用放大镜来看自己的一举一动，我会受不了。

这两天一直在问自己，我为何可以有着自私的想法？室友说，其实你自私与否的心态已经没用了--因为我自己心里很明白，我的自私，害怕，阻止不了下一步的发生，因为我会为了帮那位我想要他好的人，欣然接受。

我把那位热心朋友的建议告诉M, 他很开心，好像在绝望中找到一点点的曙光。而后，我又把自己自私的心理坦白的告诉M，他的心开始动摇了，因为他同样的不想让我难受。但，最后一句，他说，你自己考虑吧。

我，真的不是一个好人，我有邪念，我会怯步。

最后，我心里仍然有那丝自私的念头，而且我非常老实得承认。

真心的祈求，奇迹真的发生，你可以平安健康。

祈求我不想看到的事情不会发生，奇迹在我张开眼的那一刻出现。

People hate FAREWELL

Farewell is never a positive word, in my dictionary. 3 weeks ago, a good buddy left and went back to M'sia for good. It's the first home-cooked dinner I had with you, and the first dish I cooked for you. Well, it might be the last time, as I know it well that we will hardly meet again in our life, coz we are from different circles.

Honestly, our hearts are not that closed yet, and we only knew each other for one event. But, I can see that you are a really good friends, and I believe we'll cling along well if I know you earlier just as the time you knew the gang..:)

Well, we do miss you coz you are the one who always organise gatherings. And I remember you're the first to approached me when I was new to the committee.

Do hope that you will have good days back in M'sia too.

Menu for the day -- mixed veggie, drunken chicken, pickled cucumber.

A blink of eyes, the 3 weeks break is over!! Somehow, I dont have the feeling that I had gone through a break, indeed those weeks became the most tiring weeks. Everyday was like living with a magic door, this moment I'm here and the next moment I'll be miles away from here... phewww...

Tiring tough, I just love it, but I really need a good good rest now..

Hwang Bo - I'm still beautiful

Starting to love this song since a few days ago. Listen to it again and again. While revising for final exam, this melody still wandering around my mind. Perhaps, if you don't know her, you might not notice this song, but if you know her and her story, you'll like her. Hwang Bo, a lady that I should learn from. She's great, kind, nice, capable, and sings well. She cares about the people she loves, she surpresses her own feeling in consideration of the future of the person she loves.

Be strong. The main characteristic I observed from her.

《我们结婚了》-皇甫对金贤重最后的话

最后的旅行皇甫JJ和新郎在沙滩上写要对彼此说的话，皇甫JJ没有什么表白，只让新郎去听这首歌，后来看了歌词才明白，原来JJ 把想对新郎说的话，藏在了歌里面。

《希望你的爱一直幸福》

虽然，你，我，已经分手

　　那只是我们的缘分没到那里

　　寒风吹过，仿佛你还可以在我的怀里

　　飘雪时分，仿佛还可以扬雪打闹，彼此相望

　　看到那渐渐变红的鼻子

　　雨滴声声，仿佛还可以和你坐在窗边，

　　喝着咖啡，分享着小故事

　　似乎所有的一切都可以和你

　　和你分开后，一切都做不了

　　我想你

　　都是我的错

　　现在我的内心希望你能幸福

　　即便现在我们不在一处

　　也要相信缘分

　　不要贪心

　　即便现在我们不在一处

　　也不要忘记彼此

　　曾经只看着我

　　曾经只爱着你

　　希望你遇到好人

　　因为无论是谁都会认为你是好人

　　曾经对我很重要的人

　　希望适合你的爱，会来找到你

　　希望你的爱希望你一直幸福

歌名：당신의 사랑이 늘 행복하기를（希望你的爱可以一直幸福）

歌手：바이준 (By Jun)

林宥嘉 想自由 MV

莫名的，这首歌的曲，触动心坎。林宥嘉，我第一次把你的歌重复播了超过5遍。

"GOOD JOB"

Okay, I admit that I wasn't in a good mood this afternoon due to the careless mistakes I shouldn't have made. But, your words brighten my night!! When you said to me:" I enjoy to the last bit, GOOD JOB!!", wooohooooo...I was gonna jump around again. Haha, nice to hear that from you..(:

A random update, Sem 3 is gonna end soon, and that means final is coming really soon, in less than one month time. Work hard for it, and don't disappoint those who have high hope on you.

I'm definitely going to the lib earlier during Stuvac to get this nice view's location...(:

FINALLY, I have been "confirmed"!!!Going through these 4 weeks isn't easy at all, but I bear with it, and I know I will do it well one day soon.

Well, I'll still try to improve myself. So, don't worry about stagnation,Mr S, it won't happen on me.

Tonight will be a good night, all thanks to your words..(:My heart was pumping really fast, and I feel like jumping around when I heard this phrase"YW is really good!!" coming out from YOU. I don't know how to describe the feeling, but I would say that it's as if you have put a hat on me..(:..Finally, I can find the sense of belonging at this place, and I know your stereotype towards me has been partially removed.

"taadaaaa....I'm a happy cowgirl tonight!!"

Next aim, find the sense of self from another element of my life. Go go go..

I can conquer the super difficult sandboarding, so do the others!!!

天灰

这首歌，有很特别的意义。听到歌，会让我想起一位老朋友，看MV会让我想起另一个人。

今天无意中听到这首很久以前的歌。每当我听到这首歌，都会想起一位老朋友，不懂为何这首歌会让我想起这位可爱贴心的朋友，也许他很喜欢唱这首歌，记得国中的某个时段，天天听到熟悉的声音哼着同一首歌。如果国中的同班同学看到这篇，都会知道我笔下的可爱朋友是谁吧。

这首歌，我从来没有好好的把它的MV看完。今天，在复习隔天的考试时，突然在某个网站看到这首歌的MV，点了一下，听了一遍，发觉，几年后的听感，完全没有当年的感觉。也许世事多变吧。当年，你还是一个健康开朗的小孩，多年后，360度转变。看到MV中女主角写的那句，“终于无法再上课了”，我就不自觉地想到你。每天，我都会默默的祈祷，你会一直好好的活到七八十岁，然后我们一起坐在庭院，喝着暖暖的茶，听着你说你一生中的精彩片断。因为你常说，你的少年时期和别人不一样，经历别位同年龄朋友所不可能经历的，错失很多年轻小孩所应有的事迹。你一定要加油！！我记得几个星期前，你劝我别放弃，因为你不曾放弃，我做到了，我坚持到底，忍耐着那鸡蛋里挑骨头的恶魔每天严厉的斥责，8天，3个星期过去了，他好像终于对我改观，稍稍对我松懈了些，没有每刻的斥责了。也许他看到我的努力，任劳任怨的让他差遣。一起加油吧！！一大堆的关卡等着我去克服，你也要顺利的过你的魔关。

Yea, true true..but it might not be applicable to some ppl.

【现在上天要送你三样东西，你想要什么?】

三秒钟！不许贪，只能选三样~

1.一张5000万的支票。

2.一辆最新款的靓车。

3.一套高级别墅。

4.一个超高人气的微博。

5.一家顶级公司。

6.一个真心爱人。

7.一张偶像的签名合影照。

8.一个永远不吵架的家。

9.一只可爱听话的宠物。

10.一个多活10年的资格。

我看一眼，心里就有很确切的答案。

After years, you're the only one who made me start doubting my working ability. Am I the worst worker? You don't even want to consider giving me a chance for another trial? Well, I'm still hoping for miracles.

Well, I admit I saw the wrong timing and late for my trial. And I know that you will be quite strict as a boss, but please don't show me a down face for my whole trial period. I didn't mean to lie at you, and I have admitted my fault. So, please don't perceive that I'm a liar. It's so disturbing and I was in the extreme fight or flight state for the whole 5 hours.

Before getting your feedback, I wasn't expect that I would be rated that way. From all the customers' feedback, I could conclude that they are pretty much satisfied with my performance and service, some of them even feel that I'm a good and experienced worker. Indeed, some of them don't even know that I was just on my first trial. Yet, your words made me heartbroken after all. 90% of your feedback are negative and I feel depressed for the whole night. My tiny confidence has gone after this trial, you made me feel like I'm not eligible to work in any industry.

Perhaps, I failed your personality test and I'm just not good enough. I'm not a perfectionist, and I'm not ambitious at all. Is that what you want me to be?

跟自己说声对不起

跟自己说声对不起， 因为很久没有好好利用时间；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为很多东西我没有学会好好珍惜；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为忘了提醒自己要好好照顾自己；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为忘了要搁浅；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为悲伤麻烦了一些爱我的人；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为某些事的发生，自己无能为力；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为自己无法给家人最好的；

跟自己说声对不起， 因为没有好好的为家里奋斗；

最后，说完对不起，生活还在继续。

First trial on home made egg tarts。蛋挞情。一

两个星期前，第一次尝试烘蛋挞。这是还没放进烘炉的样子，还不赖的。结果，我忘了看火，失败了。

这已经是整个星期里，我的第N次心不在焉的做事情了。难道周围发生的事情真的影响到我了吗??

13.3.2011之绿豆汤

我很爱绿豆汤， 因为它会让我想起妈妈。那暖暖的，淡淡的味道， 会让我很想很想家。

今天总于买到绿豆了，看着这碗汤，有股冲动想回家。妈，您感觉到我在想您吗？

Port Stephens - One day trip

Just realised, I have been ignoring this blog for a long period of time.

It's not that I don't have anything to share, not that I don't feel like writing, not that there's no happenings. The truth is, there're too much happenings, in which I could barely breathe, and now, it's in Week 2, everything is slightly better, and I feel slightly ease than before.

Btw, I really dont have time to update on the next part of my summer break which I have promised to. Anyway, just ignore it, I'm now updating on my recent happenings.

In week 1, had a one-day trip to Port Stephens with my dears. Initially, I was expecting a more

fun-filling trip, but it's not as fun as I thought, nonetheless, I love this outing. Dolphin watching cruise, wine tasting, reptile park, sand boarding, etc, all in

one day. Ahaaa...(:

Sandboarding. Strong wind, slanting hills...phew...It was so tired to climb all the way up.

Siang was not there, due to her tiredness after working the whole day on previous day.

Spotted, everyone's leaning towards my side, and vian said this was caused my GRAVITY!!

Vian was holding the food for kangaroo, and a type of bird that looks like ostrich.

On the dolphin watching cruise. Unfortunately, we weren't able to spot any dolphin..;(

Here, I had my first kangaroo-feeding. The feeling is ----yuck.

新年。心情；聚会。聚情

这两个星期都很烦，太多太多事情的发生，有些让我喘不过气，而且，很不想一直解释周遭的事情。

不过，昨天一整天的聚会之旅，好像把烦人的情绪一扫而空...一位老朋友说的话更是让我睡觉也在笑。他，竟然说我与中学时期相比，很不一样，而且现在的我长得很像high school musical里的女主角，Gabriella。谢谢你啦，虽然有好几年没见到你，你没变啦，只是，嘴巴变甜了点。另一位老朋友就不用说啦，新年也不会从你口中听到好话。

还有还有，另一位也是很多年不见的老朋友，真的真的很开心见到你啦。你，变壮了，白了，但，一样是那种懵懵懂懂的样子，很可爱。你的弟弟更可爱，帅哥一名，而且，他知道我是谁，记得我以前在中学就是他哥哥的朋友，而且还能道出我弟弟的名字。这位老朋友啊，你该向你弟弟学习学习啦，他这么会说话，而你，真的被比下去啦。你邀我们到你家，你却傻傻的看着我们，不知道要说什么，反而是你弟弟一直找话题。还有，这位可爱的弟弟，谢谢你的赞美。

昨早，见了一群五零班的同学们，大家还是一样打打闹闹，很可爱的一群。很喜欢跟你们一起玩。今年是我们毕业后的第四年，希望到我们很老很老的时候，大家还是一样可以聚在一起，打打闹闹，东家长，西家短的。

我，真的很感谢你们大家，陪我度过了一个很怀念的新年。让原本没心情过年的我，慢慢有了一些些的新年乐趣。真的真的很谢谢你们啦。

可爱的男孩们

漂亮的菱姐，可爱的阿敏。

Ling, Wen, Min, Yi, Chia

Ling, Xuan, Gee, Li, Wen, Min, Yi, Chia

大优宾的早餐之旅

与Mr Toe合照。

p.s.还有很多照片，往后再发。

One summer break, 4 countries, 4 currencies

A long weekend??No no no...A long holiday??

Whatever la, just one word, I feel contented. One summer break, four countries, four currencies, four languages, with "tons and tons" of relatives and friends. Haha...Tons???A lil exaggerating..(:

Summer break Chapter 1 - Sydney

Woohooooo...Final exam is over...Tadaaa......My long waited holiday is here...Gogogo..

La Perouse beach: Though it's not that pretty as it was in my dream, I like to be there...Breezing cool air...ahhhh...

La Perouse Botany Bay

Next station, Sculpture by the Sea at Bondi Beach...This is one the the hundred sculptures, and I created a story for this sculpture...=D...And this day is one of the most movements days of my life. We walked all the way from bondi beach to coogee beach and then went to buy our dinner at Aseana, and then back home...Around 4 hours journey I guess.

To be continued....