我。不是完美小孩

最害怕的，

不是所有人都反对自己，

而是，

到最后才发现，

自己所坚持的，

其实是错的。

真正坚强的，

不是该哭时不哭，

而是哭完后，

还要记得如何去微笑。

Sometimes, those who look like the toughest,

are always the ones who fall asleep with tears at night.

我，不是完美的小孩，

再烦，也提醒自己别忘了微笑；

再急，也提醒自己要注意语气；

在苦，也提醒自己别忘记坚持；

再累，也提醒自己别忘了爱自己。

Flashes of.....

When waiting for the bus; the cold weather, the location, the same bus....etc. The flashes kept flooding my mind..

When I walked home through the same path, the flashes appeared again..

When I walked up the stairs; looked at the dark corner of the staircases, looked at the 3rd floor, flashes came to haunt me again..

When I walked to the balcony, looked at the dark end of the road, I could see the shadow walking there and waving bye at me..

When I felt cold; the pictures of the sweater, the warmth, the train station, etc etc... kept me drowning in the sea of flashes..

When I slept late and woke up late again, the flashes of nagging played around my ears..

When I cooked, the flashes of me preparing the food flashed in front of me..

Lots and lots of places I go, lots and lots of things I do; the flashes will keep appearing. The only thing I could do is to distract myself and put on the iron mask from now on until 1 year later, or maybe shorter period / longer period. I'll see what the fate wants me to go through in my life, and I'll see what the future wants me to do.

I've never promised on things that I couldn't 100% sure that I could make it, but that moment, I had no idea what my mind was thinking, I promised I won't give up within this 1 year, and I think I will try my best to keep my promise. Hope,wish....the tiredness won't stop me from realising my promise.

Stay strong as always, pls.